THOUGHTFULLNESS

A Large part of my life was spent thinking that none matters..can be said due to influence of some people. I have always lifted myself with the strong thought that noone matters neither society nor family or friends. It is you who matter, you are born alone, you have your own virtue and you have your own way beyond social and emotional barrier. Literally, I had spent some of my most important years in this dear quote "Nothing matters", but along with some jerks and perks, I fell down in the horrible pit of reality where the inner self had just pat my shoulder and consoled me "I am sorry, it's too late".
We are born in a family, we are one among the few soul groups we have chose n as a consiousness, we are never alone..all these friends, family and so called society has equal share in our 100% constitution. They are the active constituents.
What you are reflects your family which directly represents your soul agenda, We are indirectly connected by everyone, even the entire universe, to every object we see, to every person we meet exactly like any baby attached to his mother through silver chord.. as a matter of karma or I don't know what..
For my entire life I have made decisions thinking about noone, I had chosen things in person. I walked alone in the midst of night kept only thing in mind that it is my life and it is me who is responsible and shall be shattered if something goes wrong.
                        THE POOR ME!! 

SOCIAL NETWORK

After spending a lot of years in virtual world of social networking sites and internet, I become someone different, different from the usual me.. No, not in positive sense but thinking about a bit darker side.

I don't understand why do we waste our so important time on things which doesn't matter, not even for a single second.

Social sites have never comforted me either. Right from the starting.. the people I liked eventually blocked me one after other due to various silly/serious issues. The pages I followed, commented, liked doesn't give me any damn moral. I am being felt disappointed, irritated, screwed up seeing the person I loved with someone else..their pics/posts have upset me quite many times..led me be awake for the whole night.

The most prominent among everything is one idiotic thing called blocking.. I have been blocked by many specially the people I admired, followed, liked a lot. They found issues with me, they found me sticky or what else may I call it. I have spent enough of time talking to them, enough of time bearing there hatred, enough of time begging them to unblock, enough of time saying sorry and to forgive me. This unfortunately made me more and more irritating stuff.

Despite of all this useless heartaches..

I have been stalked by many one, my inbox used to be always full from text msgs, message requests of people I don't want to see even face of. My profile picture is liked by many, commented by enough but the real likes I wanted from were unaware of my posts..they didn't give me any value anytime.

basically made me depressed, frustrated, more lonely..

YOU ARE BEHIND SOMEBODY, THEY DON'T WANT YOU. 

SOME OTHER BODIES ARE BEHIND YOU, YOU DON'T WANT THEM.

So what is this going on???

YOU are wasting your damn time in waiting for them to accept you, wasting your damn time in ignoring what you don't want and in between liking/sharing/subscribing pages which are making money by you and have nothing to do with your state of mind.

Simply wasting your golden time which can be made useful by doing really important things and making life productive for your self and for the world too instead of feeling unwanted, feeling useless.

If you are addicted too..kindly read and understand. your life is not a piece of shit to waste.

Dream, Desire, Do.

Cheers!!