YOU

"You are made up of so many things. Like broken promises and hurtful comebacks. The pages from books you read last night and the ones in the books you’ll read tomorrow. Of carbon, oxygen, hydrogen and iron. Those shots of vodka and packs of cigarettes. You are made up of sadness, happiness, anxiety and bliss accompanied by love and indifference. A pair of lungs, a single heart, and 206 bones to say the least. Of balance and chaos; black and white and a hell of a lot of gray. You are made up of veins and scars in which no one can tell the difference between. Of every person you’ve ever met, whether good or bad. You are made up of the sounds that scare you and the ones that bring you comfort. Of trials and errors; however many that may be. You are made up of every language there ever was, and even those that have never been spoken. And stolen kisses and regrettable one night stands, along with the names of lovers that leave a bitter taste on your tongue. Of tattered bridges, villages living in ruins, and prospering cities. You are made of text book knowledge and real world experience as well as words of wisdom from your mom and dad. Your every right and wrong. Of clichés from films with happy endings and ones with twisted plots; the unexpectedness of it all. You are made of so many things. Of both construction and destruction and everything in between.”
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Not alone looks make you differ.

THOUGHTFULLNESS

A Large part of my life was spent thinking that none matters..can be said due to influence of some people. I have always lifted myself with the strong thought that noone matters neither society nor family or friends. It is you who matter, you are born alone, you have your own virtue and you have your own way beyond social and emotional barrier. Literally, I had spent some of my most important years in this dear quote "Nothing matters", but along with some jerks and perks, I fell down in the horrible pit of reality where the inner self had just pat my shoulder and consoled me "I am sorry, it's too late".
We are born in a family, we are one among the few soul groups we have chose n as a consiousness, we are never alone..all these friends, family and so called society has equal share in our 100% constitution. They are the active constituents.
What you are reflects your family which directly represents your soul agenda, We are indirectly connected by everyone, even the entire universe, to every object we see, to every person we meet exactly like any baby attached to his mother through silver chord.. as a matter of karma or I don't know what..
For my entire life I have made decisions thinking about noone, I had chosen things in person. I walked alone in the midst of night kept only thing in mind that it is my life and it is me who is responsible and shall be shattered if something goes wrong.
                        THE POOR ME!! 

SOCIAL NETWORK

After spending a lot of years in virtual world of social networking sites and internet, I become someone different, different from the usual me.. No, not in positive sense but thinking about a bit darker side.

I don't understand why do we waste our so important time on things which doesn't matter, not even for a single second.

Social sites have never comforted me either. Right from the starting.. the people I liked eventually blocked me one after other due to various silly/serious issues. The pages I followed, commented, liked doesn't give me any damn moral. I am being felt disappointed, irritated, screwed up seeing the person I loved with someone else..their pics/posts have upset me quite many times..led me be awake for the whole night.

The most prominent among everything is one idiotic thing called blocking.. I have been blocked by many specially the people I admired, followed, liked a lot. They found issues with me, they found me sticky or what else may I call it. I have spent enough of time talking to them, enough of time bearing there hatred, enough of time begging them to unblock, enough of time saying sorry and to forgive me. This unfortunately made me more and more irritating stuff.

Despite of all this useless heartaches..

I have been stalked by many one, my inbox used to be always full from text msgs, message requests of people I don't want to see even face of. My profile picture is liked by many, commented by enough but the real likes I wanted from were unaware of my posts..they didn't give me any value anytime.

basically made me depressed, frustrated, more lonely..

YOU ARE BEHIND SOMEBODY, THEY DON'T WANT YOU. 

SOME OTHER BODIES ARE BEHIND YOU, YOU DON'T WANT THEM.

So what is this going on???

YOU are wasting your damn time in waiting for them to accept you, wasting your damn time in ignoring what you don't want and in between liking/sharing/subscribing pages which are making money by you and have nothing to do with your state of mind.

Simply wasting your golden time which can be made useful by doing really important things and making life productive for your self and for the world too instead of feeling unwanted, feeling useless.

If you are addicted too..kindly read and understand. your life is not a piece of shit to waste.

Dream, Desire, Do.

Cheers!!

THE PALE BLUE DOT

A Pale Blue Dot

This excerpt from Sagan's book Pale Blue Dot was inspired by an image taken, at Sagan's suggestion, by Voyager 1 on February 14, 1990. As the spacecraft left our planetary neighbourhood for the fringes of the solar system, engineers turned it around for one last look at its home planet. Voyager 1 was about 6.4 billion kilometres (4 billion miles) away, and approximately 32 degrees above the ecliptic plane, when it captured this portrait of our world. Caught in the centre of scattered light rays (a result of taking the picture so close to the Sun), Earth appears as a tiny point of light, a crescent only 0.12 pixel in size.

“Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there-on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.
The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot.
Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark. In our obscurity, in all this vastness, there is no hint that help will come from elsewhere to save us from ourselves.
The Earth is the only world known so far to harbor life. There is nowhere else, at least in the near future, to which our species could migrate. Visit, yes. Settle, not yet. Like it or not, for the moment the Earth is where we make our stand.
It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we've ever known.” ― Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot: A Vision of the Human Future in Space

MY #SENECTITUDE PLANS

To roam like a meanderer with a Nikon D500, a diary, a parker, my comfortable sleepers and a bag full of eatables..No destination to reach, No decided place to visit. Just to follow the tracks and realise what everything comes along no matter if it is a barren land or any aristocratic palace which signifies the prodigious Indian erudition.. and nothing much..

So the footsteps took me here..@ the famous #City_palace of the beautiful Udaipur.. The gigantic royality of Indian kings and their lives was a subject of attraction since birth as being Brahmin by paternal pedigree we have received honour of being purohits of Maharaja's court..
Each and every monument, entire palace area..the gilded entrance, the royal monuments, those antique and beautiful Windows, the incredible carvings over rooftops, the giant pools, unique Silver and Gold articles, the big lawns, the most elegant outlooks of lake #pichhola #fateh_sagar, those perfect gardens, the super duper exhibition of armours, weapons, the then used utensils, those king sized bed of kings , tables, chairs, Hifi courtrooms, the beautiful descriptions of their luxurious lifestyles, their greatness, their valor.. the glorific history, the proud present, the immortal future..
Indeed fortunate to be born in this motherland.. privileged to be able to witness an entire history.. to which we as Indians belong.

THE MAN WHO KNEW INFINITY

And one day I watch what I think I should have watched earlier. The sorts of emotions in an entire legendary biopic with a lot to learn and equally lot to feel..  So, introducing you people with the beautiful movie cum biopic I came across today.. of an Indian legend Mr. Shrinivas Ramanujan..or I must say  the god’s  messenger.. the man made of mathematics.. may be he would be drinking and eating and even breathing mathematics. Whoa!!!  I must say the movie had brilliant impact in people like me.. who are somewhere in a race to achieve something beyond human perceptions..

Well beautifully narrated and directed by Mr. Matthew brown, wonderfully played by Dev Patel (I Wonder why Indian cinema lacks such thoughts when outsiders willingly make movies on our heroes). Guilty is what I felt watching the complete film at least twice.. I have been in a urge to complain of about everything what I surround just because of some temporary decisions. The movie slapped me hard by showing me the life of a legend.. a life without any material comfort, without any luxury,  neither do it relate with any healthy relationship goals..But as he was a messenger of god (I personally feel), he put aside every sort of negative and distracting thought and continue to do work he was good at.. I just felt so beautiful.. and better beautiful by thinking out of our motherland; how it had provided the great people time to time for the benefits of mankind..

The movie remind me of Rajesh Khanna’s  “Anand”.. Zindagi badi honi chahiye,lambi nahi”. Ramanujan proved it.. (although proofs were the thing he hated for his entire life, his life has become a biggest proof). Yet how short he lived but he lived fullest and gave the world something that made him immortal. This is what we too should urged for.. no matter how many days we live but the quality of life is what it do matter.. if we are given birth, we should have a single kind deed for the humanity, don’t be bothered if you are bad in studies we can be helpful in any aspect even with any generous help to a needy is a kind deed in itself.. not only for remembrance of our physical existence but also to have satisfaction when facing God, after death that we didn’t waste his blessings to give us birth..

Some movies make you cry and laugh and motivated and determined everything at a time.. no matter if you hate mathematics.. it’s  just another sort of a story to learn from..

This is a Must watch!

Blessings to the production!!

THE FAULT IN OUR STARS

I believe we have a choice in this world about how to tell sad stories..

On the one hand, u can sugarcoat it. 

The way they do in movies and romance novels.

Where beautiful people learn beautiful lessons..where nothing is too messed up that can't be fixed with an apology and a Peter Gabriel song..

THE FAULT IN OURS STARS. .

So..watched the movie.. you know like..some movies are just so so so awesome..all one could do is watch them..cry watching them..and keep on watching... here is the kind of movie.. I am happy enough to be able to read the novel too from which they have made the movie out.. the day I watched it..I felt in love with author.. Mr. John Green. Sometimes I feel like not everyone can be a writer.. (Now a day's every second person is a writer). There are few in the world blessed by the grace of god.. to be able to write so efficiently, every single word written by them is magic.. every line, every sentence, every quote somewhere has answer of our question by means of a lesson..

And so is the book or movie..

The choice of cast by the producers has added cherry on the cake.. both the leads were so so beautiful in themselves..they just made the character totally realistic..Hazel by Shailene Woodley and Augustus by Ansel Algort.. O My God!! the boy was so cute with killing smile..

They had cancer.. met somewhere at a support group.. generally became friends and fell in love with their generosity..

I watched the movie.. I cried because the movie was at a place sweet and other place so so touchy that I could'nt resisit myself watching it again again.. 

let me not go deep.. otherwise I'll have to watch it again.. :)

The book had many many and many beautiful quotes and paragraphs.. I was in dilemma what to where not to use highlighter..

anyways..

Some excerpts from the book:

  "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference"

  "I am on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend"

 "There will come a time, when all of us are dead. All of 

us.There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and build and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this will have been for naught. May that time is coming soon and may be it's millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you. I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that's what everyone else does."